Two things.
First, among all the different kinds of things I’ve undertaken in my life, writing an exam is the second least enjoyable one. The least enjoyable one is grading an exam. I’ve just finished writing one, and the joy of having finished that task is, as usual, overshadowed by the dread of having to grade it real soon.
[Sweeping generalizations are fun. If writing or grading an exam is the worst experience of my life, I guess I'm doing fairly well. It isn't, of course. Any day now I'm sure I'll get slapped in the face with something far more brutal than writing or grading an exam, and I'll get the above statement shoved right back in my face. But I'll let it stand for now.]
Second, I’m deeply worried about the integrity of my food finickiness — in particular, my olive antipathy. Today I tried eating olives — both in a salad and by themselves — and I completely failed to feel disgusted.
Maybe they were just unusually dull-tasting olives, devoid of that usual level of objectionableness that I’ve come to expect from my periodic give-olives-another-chance-although-you-know-how-it-will-end charade. Maybe my taste buds just happened to flake out at the same time. But I can’t shake off the fear that an integral part of me, a chunk of the core of my very being, is on the brink of being lost forever.
The other day it was sushi. Long back, it was coffee, and even further back, red and white wines. If I had gotten into the habit, way back in the day, of betting against various hardly-edibles and hardly-potables in inverse proportion to my perceived probability of ever consuming them, I would be bankrupt many times over already.
I suppose it is about time to start accepting that eventually, in some arcane twist of psychological development, I shall end up liking sun-dried tomatoes.
On that day, I will not have lost a battle. I will have lost the war. This new Gulli has been insidiously infiltrating my mind for years. At that point, he will have taken over.